In our sorrow, we have not forgotten our blessings. They are very many and we are very grateful. God is so very generous with His love and His grace and His mercy. Even as tears silently stream down my face, I praise Him and I thank Him for the privilege of being a mother so many times. I thank Him for choosing Chief and me to cooperate with Him as he creates eternal souls.
My womb is empty, but my heart is full. It is full to the brim, nearly bursting. It holds aching and sorrow, but so much more joy and love. The sorrow is real, but not overpowering.
St Teresa of Avila’s bookmark prayer comes to mind again and again. It is my strength during this time.
Let nothing disturb you,
Let nothing frighten you,
All things pass away:
God never changes.
Patience obtains all things.
He who has God
Finds he lacks nothing;
God alone suffices.
Yes, my heart is full, joy abounds, even in the midst of sorrow. One happy thing for my mother’s heart is that today SuperSoldier is coming home for Christmas leave. We will enjoy a bit over 2 weeks with him. I am so glad.
I leave you with some pictures that capture some of my joy: